I said, I can't be your friend right now. I need time to adjust. You are not alone, but I can't be your person.
I said, Because this is a change. From being "ex" to "friend." One gets in the way of the other. I can't be your friend with the relationship hanging over us. I NEED time apart.
I think, am I leaving it still too open? Am I only leading him along even longer, in a sort of half-life of waiting? Do I want to be his friend, ever, and if not am I being cruel?
But I think that we could, maybe, be friends. I might like to be. Just not now. Not like this.