It was long ago and far away. And yet, it seems as if it keeps coming up, lately.
And I was trying to figure out why that is. If it was so long ago and far away why would I be thinking about it now? When I am so much better? But I think that maybe it was always coming up and I just didn't know it. I was reacting to things without knowing the reason why. It's only lately that I had a moment of recognition: this bad feeling is like that bad feeling, and that's why I suddenly want to curl up and protect myself!
Only, with the awareness comes the price of remembering.