This is, like, the third time I've started to write a post that says, essentially:
Cassidy! Is awesome!
ME: I think maybe you do a thing, and I'm sure I'm imagining it, but *whine*
HIM: I think you're partly right, I sort of do that, and here's why it made sense to me.
ME: Ok. It makes me feel crappy.
HIM: [changes his behavior]
I feel like another person would have reassured me that my worries weren't true. Instead he confirms my fear, and then changes his behavior so it won't bother me anymore.
I still tag this under "dating." At some point I will need a new tag. I have no idea what that tag would be. They are dating-feelings that I'm having, sort of.
I keep pushing at the reasons we broke up, but no matter how hard I push, I can't make a dent. They are as true and important as they were a month ago. I keep pushing anyway, because even though I know it, I refuse to believe it.