I haven't been to the gym in more than a week. I've been binge eating again. I am behind in my classes. I am tired. I missed application deadlines. My resume sucks. Fuck that, my resume is empty. I start to think about what I need to do and I panic. I shut down. Erin said that it sounded like my life was going really well, and I think yeah. I have rainbow painted nails. The sex is good. I am happy as long as I'm not thinking, and I'm really good at not thinking. So I'm happy.