what ifs

To observe an event is to change it. When I write down my thoughts about an event, how much am I changing it? If I hadn't written something down, if I hadn't spent the time figuring out what the right words are, would I forget the event sooner? I thought of this blog as a way to organize myself, to reminisce and remind, but I think I'm also prolonging the event. My trip to Chicago isn't just the three days I spent there, it spans out on both sides, where I'm planning, or processing. The more I think about it, the bigger the event gets. I find myself fixating on Jeriah again (three posts in 24 hours), but if I hadn't written it down, would I have forgotten by now? Would I be over it already?